Once you go black, you never go back ;)

It's been like 10 months, since last September 2010? Things have changed.

* finished freakin FIA? Check.

* Got new friends? Check.

* Got into degree and met cranky gloomy-looking lecturers? Check.

* Told my family I'm gay and got all treated differently for it? Check.

* Found the love of my life? =)

Well, I finished my foundation course and moved on to a Degree in Mass Communication(majoring in Marketing) in HELP. You see, I wanted a major in 'Media Studies' but dad went like, "Oh yeah, we'll see how you get a job". Dad, supportive much? Seriously?

Dinesh George Lourdes. Who is this amazing cute brown boy? I met him last year back in October in my Tourism class. Never thought we'd talk but we did =)

I remembered thinking, "Who's this dude that kept telling me he likes Lady Gaga?"

We became close friends after a while, and then he had to leave to Australia for two weeks. And right before the plane took off, I sent him a text, telling him that I love him for the very first time. And that's where it all began. The story of us..(look, it's not all about Taylor Swift alright..)

He's my boyfriend, my baby, my boyfiee, everything I've ever wanted. I love his amazing looking brown skin, his beautiful puppy eyes, and his irresistible soft luscious lips. Most importantly, of how much he loves me and cares for me. Here I'll show Miley 'One in a Million'.

baby I love you <3

G.A.G.A( Grateful and gradually appreciating)

Life, is so ambiguous. Even tiny little details like numbers can be a part of the definition. You don't get what I meant, do you? What I was trying to say is, sometimes we worry too much. May it be bigger issues like assignments, obligations like studying(LOL!), and tiny little things like organizing outings. Some people spend their life resenting, being filled with hatred and anger every second they screw/or get screwed up. I just think that, why don't people spend their amount of time left being happy? Making effort to improve themselves? Helping the less fortunate? Gee, I'm starting to sound like Mother Teresa now.

I used to be a victim, now slowly appreciating time and spending it wisely(no, not trying to sound annoying here). I've always been living life spontaneously, and hey, it has just been widen seconds ago. Something a little relevant here would be my dream. I've always wanted to work with successful people from the film industries in the U.S. Christopher Nolan, M. Night Shyamalan...awesome people that I want to work with. You can guess what some people could've said about this. Look, no matter what you dream to do, go for it! At first, when I told my parents I wanted to be a scriptwriter, they literally laughed! It's fortunate I have few supportive friends(esc a friend Ana from Panama). Also being inspired by Lady GaGa. One thing I remembered her saying is 'Never be afraid to live your dream'.

Think of it. What if you have 3 months left to live? Or a week? Or less than 24 hours?

Live is short, make the best of it.

Recently, I took up Legal Studies, Psychology and Tourism. Loved every minute of the classes. Interesting. It's just somehow I don't feel like I fit into the crowd in my classes...sometimes it's like I'm the outcast. This is so not what I had in high school. BUT hey, it's not as bad as it sounds. I still make friends(outside the class), and have a fairly good life there.

Being tempted in my tourism class, I really wanna FUCKING go on a vacation! haha

I've planned to visit my friend Ana from Panama...she's really nice. I would love to see how she looks in real life(Although I've seen her pics on facebook, I'd say she's really pretty).

Ah, I'm tired. Going to stop here. And it's the VMAs tomorrow! I wish Lady GaGa all the best!

"Never be afraid to live your dream, life is short, make the best of it"- Lady GaGa

Good vs Evil?

I had this online conversation with several people recently, all telling me the same thing. BE NICE.
You see, what makes someone interesting/likable/or whatever shit you can think of....is their personality. The one thing that shapes an individual, whether you like it or not.

I would prefer calling myself 'honest' rather than 'mean'. Sometimes, people just have to know how bad they are in certain things. I'm not saying everyone should judge and criticize. What I meant was...you gotta stand up for your opinions(ones that's rational of course).

You might find my argument extremely messy, with my points dispersing into different places. Well, all I gotta say is, I am just being who I am.
If I've hurt you, then I must have helped you. =) Ironic, but true.

Now, this is irrelevant to the statements on top. I've come to a decision, that I will not continue my education in HELP(after completing FIA). Reason? I hate the building, geographically. Most of all, I hate the people there. Not all, but most of them. They're all so unfriendly.
Maybe I don't fit in, maybe I'm different there. Who cares, right?

Anyway, some of my friends in my CTS class is actually tutoring. I was like..."I wanna teach too!" Well, I'm gonna be looking out for newspapers and websites for those information. I need cash, like desperately for my own personal use. Like buying presents for my girlfriend and stuff for my mother.

Currently learning Spanish, it's not that hard to learn really. But the thing is, the pronunciation needs a lil' extra work.

Presentations coming in two weeks....gotta be prepared and stuff like that. I actually swapped my number 12 for a number 2. Can't help but to help that poor African girl. She didnt wanna go second, so well...

I think that's it for now.

Oh by the way, here's the achievements of Lady GaGa so far...(I might leave some out)

1.) named the most influential person by the TIMES magazine(she surpassed Obama)
2.) debuted at number four in the FORBES list, earning over 62 Million last year.
3.) 'The Fame' album is still at worldwide charts(top10) despite being there over two years.
- made history in digital sales, owning Coldplay.
4.) First living person to achieve more than 10million friends in facebook(surpass Obama again)
- FYI, Michael has 14million. But rmb...I said 'LIVING'. Lady GaGa has 12 million currently. Will she beat the King of Pop?
5.) All her songs released became hits and number ones in many countries, even in Asian countries like Taiwan and Japan.
6.) as a Fashion icon, she actually influenced/threw a 'gaga' meteor at fashion! Various fashion shows are actually using her concepts.
7.) The Grammys changed their rules for her. Now, how cool is that? =)
8.) Her concerts are always sold out, if not, 97-98% sold off in one or two spot.
9.) Michael Jackson, before he died, actually wanted to work with GaGa. He wanted her on the tour with him. This claim was made by Michael's personal manager.
10.) She's every artist's dream to work with...google and you'll see.
11.) John Lennon's son allowed her to play his father's piano! What an honor!

...there are more...it'll take centuries to finish. SO Imma stop here.
Signing off, GaGaLoVeR

Long Time Dead

Yes, it's been a while since I've posted something. Okay fine, it's been a long time.

The truth is, lots of things have been going on. Exams, quizzes and freaking other things to do. I'd rather travel through time and die with the other victims of the Titanic tragedy. Seriously.

Well, I promise to write more soon.

Signing off, GaGaLover.

American suicIDOL?

This season is, probably, the worst I've ever seen. Worst lines of contestants and whatever the rest you think it's appropriate to add. The judges are getting a little restless, not to mention that even Simon looked bored throughout every episode of this ridiculous show.
Don't get me wrong, I WAS a fan of this reality show. But I lost that interest since two seasons ago, winners like David Cook and Taylor Hicks has changed my perspective of the show.
I was absolutely fine with Kelly Clarkson and Carrie Underwood. The other winners are just boring, and 'average'.

Speaking of the show, Lady GaGa performed a medley of 'Bad Romance' and 'Alejandro'. Lots of complaints about how Lady GaGa messed up the lyrics or tune, or how she should tame her wild-ness in her dressing.
Look, FOX producers edited the whole FUCKING performance! According to sources, they are allowed 3.5-5 minutes and GaGa's performance was over 6 minutes.

They removed half of the chorus, edited her voice, horrifically chose terrible angles and obviously, RUINED everything! The pop princess had every right to complain about this mess. Yes, they paid her $250,000 and she should just suck it up. But she don't care about the dollar signs, she wants her performances to be virtually flawless. It's like art! How can you buy a $250,000 painting and cut it into pieces just to fit your wall?

Lady GaGa's performance on Idol was not justified, definitely not.
Some said, they edited because it's a family show. THEN WHY THE FUCK did the producers book her at the first place? They KNEW how controversial she is, and how to expect to be shocked. But oh no, they have to book her and ruin her performance. Seriously, sentence them to death!

Whatever it is, I'm not watching American Idol ever again.

Roller Coaster Ride

Going up....going down....going up. Okay, I'm going to stop the crap.

Semester break is coming to an end, and I'm very happy about it.

I love the 'introduction' part of every course, where you meet new people, before they turn their backs on you. I love introducing my eccentric self too, and people do get pretty convinced.
Some thought I was.....crazy. That's what you get when you let your heart win. *smiles*

Well, I've got my results, and felt pretty much nothing.
I failed my maths, heck.
Got credit for my Computing Principle.
Got distinction for my English and Study Skills.

Whatever, but anyway, I'm supposed to pick two electives for my upcoming semester.
I've decided, that Psychology and Public Relations are my final choice.
Picked them because they sounded good, LOL, but hey, I'm interested too.

On top of all that, I really wanna join the debating club! DESPERATE, more desperate than desperate housewives on prime time television!

Oh, and I watched so many movies & TV Series during my break.
Awesoommmeee


That's it. Singing out, Bryan.

Mistaken for another race?

Here's the interesting part, I love witnessing the confused look on people's face, where they try to guess where I'm from or my ethnicity. I've always been talking about this to my buddies, telling them how funny these encounters were.

It all started back in high school, form 3 to be specific. One of my teacher, she teachers art, asked me whether I'm an Eurasian. For people who are not familiar with this term, 'Eurasian'. It means a person with mixed European and Asian descent. Well, the name says it all.
I stared at her, confused. Having that curiosity, I did my research on that.
Not long after that, many other teachers came asking me, mostly Malay teachers.

When it came to form 4 and 5, it became more 'popular'. Everyone I meet, even people from outside my school/strangers, thinks I'm mixed. For heaven sakes, even all my friend's parents thinks so. I get questions like, 'Are you mixed?', 'Are you pure Chinese?', 'Where are you from?', 'Is your dad, a mat salleh?'....etc.

Every time I go to a friend's house, I get stared. And the next day, my friend will tell me that parents had question my ethnicity. It goes all along, in fact, it's still happening now.
To sum everything up, all people thinks my dad's the European and my mom's the Asian. I wonder why...LOL

Few things I've observed though, is that most people who did the guessing were girls. It's like a 60% girls, 40% boys. I get why they say girls are more observant now *smiles*. And another thing, Indians had never mistaken me for another race, they have always thought I was Chinese.
Chinese and Malays are otherwise. Came to think of it, I went and question them further, asking them to guess, deeper. Few Malay girls made a wild guess, 'Are you Portuguese mixed Chinese?'
I kept my mouth shut, *flashes sinister smile*

It's not bad, in fact, I think it's fun. I'm just waiting for more.


Signing off, Bryan GaGaBoy